Real friends?

Okay, so i know, friends are meant to help you through whatever, thick and thin.
'scuse the pun.

But when you've told them a million times, you dont want help,

You dont NEED help.
You'd think they'd leave you the hell alone.

For god sake, i dont need help, i need acceptance!

I'm sick of hearing

'Do you want some dinner?'
'No thanks'
'Are you sure?'
'Honestly babe, im fine'
'Please have something'

'Why?'
'Just please do, im worried about you'

Bloody hell man get over it, im not exactly waisting away.
Fucking hell, im nearly 8 stone.
Not exactly a size zero am i!

I love 'em to bits but i wish theyd give over!

They make me want to cave.
When you've had something offered so many times that little voice in your head starts saying.

'Go on just have a bit, it wont hurt and besides it'll get them off your back, you can just be good tomorrow. Just have a bit then you can go home, and get on the crosstrainer. There's always tomorrow to listen to the other voice. Just listen to me today, You never listen to me!'

Alternate voice says.

'Come on youve been good all week, dont let yourself down, youve reached a milestone. Christmas is coming up. Do you want to look like a fat whore in your party dress. Cellulite popping from the bottom of your LBD is not a good look, are you gonne cave? You shitty letdown..... Oh...you did. I cant believe you ate THAT. You fat cow!'

Thats right, i ruined my weeks hard work.
Devil won. But like he says there's always tomorrow.
Always tomorrow to listen to ana's angel.
xxxxx